A lady reminded me just recently that not long after you were born, I turned to her and said: ‘God knew just what I needed’. Those feelings have never gone away.
I doubt you will ever forget this year – the year your sister spent so much time in hospital. But through it all I’ve been amazed by your maturity, your willingness to accept what’s going on around you, to keep putting one foot in front of the other and trusting us as your parents.
I’ll let you into a secret…much of the time we haven’t been so great at knowing what to do and have felt guilty for not giving you the time or attention you deserve. But we’ve watched and learnt from you, providing hugs when they’ve been needed and moments of joy to break the silence.
I don’t doubt that you have grown up in the process, become wiser than your years should ordinarily require. But I know you’re still there – my blue-eyed boy with the cheeky smile and that quiet yet dogged determination I’ve come to admire over the years.
The boy I love so very much.
When kind friends offered you the opportunity to go on holiday in the summer (for twelve whole nights!) I watched as you came to your decision. You didn’t answer straight away, requesting a weekend to consider. Then two days later, just as we had agreed, you said ‘yes please‘; no persuasion from anyone required.
I was so proud of you for making that brave decision. You had “the best holiday ever”!
You started secondary school just three weeks ago, my last baby to flee the nest. With your head held high, you’ve taken it all in your stride – the next phase of life, one you’re sure to embrace just like all the others. Yes we might need to work on your memory a bit and homework will probably never be embraced, but you have a quality so much more important than either of those two things – a quiet assurance that I know others will be drawn to.
I’ve watched you embrace your love of football this year, growing into your role on the team you’ve been a part of for the last three years. Your loyalty and commitment is to be envied, they are lucky to have you on their side.
In fact, we’re all lucky to have you on our side. You’re funny, sincere, kind-hearted and loyal to the core.
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